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August, Please Be Kind

Screenshot of one of my entries in DayCount.

It’s the first day of August. 145 days since the world stopped. At least that’s what it seemed to me. What we thought was a week of class and work suspension because of an unfamiliar virus has turned into almost five months of working at home due to a global pandemic. While some of my friends have been busy and productive doing art, kid-friendly activities, cooking, baking…I think I’ve been running on auto-pilot.

Yes, I’ve cooked a bit, learned to make puto from a mix, done lots and lots of interpreting work, managed to keep things going with work, but if you ask me how I did it I don’t have any recollection. Auto-pilot. Mindfulness was not my thing these past months. Plus for every whatever I’ve done that you would think was productive, I’d have a list of tasks that I have yet to attend to. Even now just thinking about that list is starting to put me on edge.

But it’s the first day of August and I’d like to be more present this month. More deliberate with what I do with my time and where I put my energy into. Less of multitasking and more of concentrating on one task at a time. I know doing several things at the same time is something many people can do but it’s time for me to accept that I am not one of those people and when I decide I am going to be doing something then I need all my attention on that. This is my intention for this month.

Oh, and August, please cooperate with me on this one, it’s been an exhausting 145 days. Please be kind.

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33 Days


On the afternoon of March 9, a Monday, we were sent home and we were told that classes had been suspended for the rest of the week. The growing number of COVID-19 cases in the country had alarmed the Manila City Mayor, who was in London at that time, by the way, and this was the best course of action that he could think of. Well, maybe because that was what the other city mayors did earlier that day. We all hoped that things would get sorted out by the end of the week and that come Monday all would be back to normal. Well, it’s been 33 days.

33 days of uncertainty. 33 days of anxiety. 33 days of “the new normal”. Supposedly all the introverts are thriving in this environment. I doubt it. After all, this social distancing isn’t happening on one’s terms. It’s being thrust onto us.

33 days. And truth to be told, no end in sight.

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The Year That Was 2018

I haven’t written in a long while and that’s because life happens. Truth be told, I’m not even sure why I insist on continuing to blog when there are so many things that need to be done “in real life” but here I am. The year will end in a little over 30 hours and I thought it would be a good thing to look back and acknowledge that I’ve grown. Even if it seems like I haven’t.

I got this idea from a friend who, more than a decade ago, would do this every year. I wonder if she still does this? It’s 40 questions to answer about the year that was. Here we go…

1. What did you do in 2018 that you’d never done before?

I walked along the Great Wall of China. I was actually on top of the Wall. Something we would only talk about in history classes and I never thought I would get to visit but I was there. And all that culture? It was amazing.

2. Did you keep your new years’ resolutions, and will you make more for next year?

I haven’t done New Year’s resolutions since 2014, instead I started coming up with a word that would guide me throughout the year. Although last year I wasn’t able to come up with a word. 😦 This 2019 my word is BETTER. 

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?

Yes! 🙂 R to a baby girl and A to her third baby boy.

4. Did anyone close to you die?

No. But a number of my friends’ parents did and that was always so sad.

5. What countries did you visit?

The US and China.

6. What would you like to have in 2019 that you lacked in 2018?

The discipline to be consistent in developing good habits.

7. What date from 2018 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?

October 24. Sary broke her leg and she had to have an operation done to put a metal plate and pins. A month later we were back in the OR because her scar opened up and had to be sewed back up. As of this writing, I’m actually panicking because her leg is curving outwards after some days of walking without the crutches and she says it hurts to move.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?

I moved to a different department. After holding onto a post for nine years it was an achievement to move forward.

9. What was your biggest failure?

Having such a cluttered home.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?


11. What was the best thing you bought?

My Garmin watch since it has a run/walk interval timer. It’s going to be a really big help in preparing for that marathon next year.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?

Definitely Iya for being such a brave and helpful eldest child.

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?

Our President. 

14. Where did most of your money go?

To the kids. For their tuition, daily needs, and other expenses. And especially Sary’s hospital bills.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?

The NMUN-China event.

16. What song will always remind you of 2018?

I don’t really listen to the new songs of the year. 2018 will remind me of 90s songs because this year my high school batch celebrated our silver jubilee and it was a flashback to the 90s.

17-19. Compared to this time last year, are you:

i. happier or sadder? Sadder. I have a child in pain.

ii. thinner or fatter? Thinner.

iii. richer or poorer? Richer, despite the unexpected medical expenses because I’ve paid off debt.

20. What do you wish you’d done more of?

Spend time playing or just hanging out with the kids.

21. What do you wish you’d done less of?

Screen time. Computer. Netflix. Phone. Television.

22. How did you spend Christmas?

With Junjay’s family in Negros Occ. We spent the morning up in the farm and the rest of the day at the home of his parents.

23. Did you fall in love in 2018?


24. Who got together and who broke up?

Oh no. I wasn’t really paying attention to these things.

25. What was your favorite TV program?

Madam Secretary and How To Get Away With Murder. And then there’s Grey’s Anatomy.

26. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?

Hate is too strong a word even if this person is being really, really difficult — so, no.

27. What was the best book you read?

The Art of Racing in the Rain.

28. What was your greatest musical discovery?

Ben and Ben.

29. What did you want and got?

I wanted to sign up for The Bull Runner Dream Marathon and I did.

30. What was your favorite film of this year?

Ready Player One. I enjoyed it but really it’s because I don’t remember other movies I’ve watched this year.

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?

I turned 42 and I spent the day travelling to Beijing, China.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?

If I ran more. Went home earlier from work.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2018?

The teacher look. As always.

34. What kept you sane?


35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?

Our VP, Leni Robredo!

36. What political issue stirred you the most?

The competency of our current President. I mean, I really, really, really tried to make it all about the issues but he is just so infuriating.

37. Who did you miss?

I missed quite a number of people. People who were really only just there but we couldn’t find the time to meet up. That’s got to change next year.

38. Who was the best new person you met?

Not new people because I’ve known them for some 25 years now but have never really talked to them or shared stories. The best “new” people I met this year are my high school batchmates during our silver homecoming. Reconnecting, making new old-friends was a blast.

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2018.

I need to be honest with people, even if it scares me and it hurts them, because I care about them.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.

You gotta be bad, you gotta be bold, you gotta be wiser. You gotta be hard, you gotta be tough, you gotta be stronger. You gotta be cool, you gotta be calm, you gotta stay together. All I know, all I know is love will save the day. ~ Des’ree

So that was 2018. Here’s to a better 2019 for all of us. 🙂


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Where Did The Days Go?

The last entry I wrote was in August. That’s almost 6 months ago. For yet another time I let “busyness” hijack my plans. Although, was I really busy? Or maybe the right question is was I busy with what was important to me?

I know I got things done at work. I know I was serving my community. I was present at school activities of my children. I lobbied for issues on social media. Yet somehow, I still feel I didn’t get the important things done.

What are the important things? When I think about it, it’s building relationships and “wasting time” with people who are important to me like my aging parents, my husband, my daughters. It’s being mindful when I read emails and being present in the moment when I write my response. It’s setting aside time for myself, to take care of myself and get fit, read books, take up a hobby.

You know those three books I posted a picture of in my last post. They remain unread.

Maybe I’ll start with that.

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Half-Empty or Half-Full?


And just like that, half the year is gone. Or I guess we can see it as half the year still ahead. Time to pause and take stock of the promises we made to ourselves at the start of the year.

When my 2016 started I chose a word to live out. That word is SOAR. I admit that’s not how I would describe how things are in my life at this point but I can say I have gotten off the ground. 🙂

Here’s to the next six months of flight.

How has your year been so far? 🙂

Posted in Daily Musings, Faith Life

This Year I Will SOAR

For 3 years now I’ve stopped listing New Year’s Resolutions and instead simplified this tradition by focusing on just one word. This came about when I chanced upon One Word 365 from one of the blogs that I used to follow. The idea is to choose a word and reflect/meditate on that for the rest of the year. Live the whole year with intention, focusing on what that one word means for you.

In the last weeks of 2015 I have been praying on what my one word for this year should be. The words I had previously chosen were MOVE and FORWARD. Was I able to live the past years according to the words I had chosen? Honestly? Not entirely. 😦 I chalk that up to forgetting about the part where I commit to living out my year with intention and focus on the word I’ve chosen. And I commit to making this year different. The word I choose is going to be my commitment to my God and to myself. Which is why I was cautious in making a choice for my ONE WORD.

And yet, no matter how I wanted to proceed with caution and choose a safe word (like joy or hope or faith) it was a different word that resonated with me.


Hmmm…Lord, SOAR? Are you sure this is what you want for me in 2016? I mean, I can barely run a 5k and you want me to soar?

My Father God believes in me more than I believe in myself, apparently. And I believe in Him. So SOAR it is. I can’t wait to see what 2016 has in store for me.

How about you, friend? Do you have a one word for 2016? 🙂

Have a blessed and abundant year ahead. 🙂

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Only The Positive Goes Through My Door!

Today a friend pointed out that I was micromanaging at work. Let me tell you how grateful I am for this person’s presence because he really does tell it to me straight. Not too many people do that anymore.

So apparently he noticed it because my aura is so different from what it usually is. Read: STRESSED! So I am going to turn things around. Tomorrow, I let people deal with the things that they should be dealing with in the first place. I allow them to make their mistakes and stop myself from catching them when they fall…especially when they don’t tell me they were planning on making a jump in the first place! The new rule is that you don’t come to me with a problem without a suggestion or solution to accompany it.

Nega Out

I’m just going to turn you away!